Neat little boxes with tight fitting lids.

So I haven't posted in a couple of days because I have been struggling with some things and my way of dealing with them is to internalize them , and put all the struggles away in neat little boxes with tight fitting lids and forget about them. However this hasn't worked well in the past so maybe vaguely divulging them here will help in some ways. Thus we have a giant list of doom aka things i am currently struggling with.

Sickness-Ive been sick this week which is only compounded by the fact that most people don;t even know this so I find myself hiding my symptoms rather than explain it to anyone. Very few people in my currently life even know how sick I once was or even what I have. Obviously nothing serious just easier not to explain. I guess.

Expectations-by in large my biggest current, and long term, struggle. Basically I know expect too much pf people because I project myself onto them, and I know just how much I would do for them, or how much they could expect from me. Ultimately these expectations are rarely met, and the only one who ends up suffering is me. Then I get upset with myself, never the other person, for allowing myself to get let down yet again. This mostly revolves around people not keeping their word, or responsibility, or commitments. To me my word is bond, and if I say I'll help with something or be someplace, it would take a small plague to keep me away. However I cannot expect that out of most people, which saddens me.

Pictures- This one is far more superficial but lets be honest I am 90% euphoric with my life and 2 little struggles arn't gonna keep me down so I have to throw this one in there. Basically I had gotten to where I generally liked about 10% of my photos, however with the addition of 2 new lenses one of which is honestly FAR beyond my skill level, I have been taking pictures all week and don;t really like any of them before editing and only a handful after. Please don;t patronize me and tell me they're good, its not about that. I'm learning and I welcome the challenge. Here are some I took the other day, obviously playing with some closer shots, now that i have a better zoom lens.

This being said, I am still really really happy with things. Those few minor struggles are just that. They arn't tearing me apart or anything (well the expectations one is starting to get old). I recognize there are so many people, even in my life, and on my friends list, that are going through things right now, that I pray for daily. Just kinda trying out this catharsis thing and seeing if it helps. Now I'm off to work on a special project for a friend who is leaving on a missions trip to Nicaragua very very soon.